WHAT DOES RM1.TO SEX HERE MEAN?

"I observed flailing limbs, my telling him to get off, and then getting my arms pinned down. I performed the very first 30 seconds and realized precisely what it absolutely was. I turned it off and went and vomited within the yard.""I didn't want to have sex with him. I didn't want to touch him. I didn't want to have a look at him,"